Suffer from myself /  by Andrew Diaz

SUFFER FROM MYSELF

LIKE TO BE HERE

YOU LIKE TO MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY

NO PROGRESS

NO ADVANCEMENT

JUST PLAYING WITH MY FUTURES

JUST DENYING MY PAST

ALL ALONG YOU AGE LIKE I DO

ALL FOR NOT ARE MY PLANS TO CONTINUE

YOU FIGHT ME EVERY STEP

YOU JUDGE MY EVERY BREATH

WHY CAN'T I SHAKE YOU

WHY CANT I JUST KILL YOU

MY END WILL BE YOURS TOO

MY LIFE IS YOURS, THATS UNFORTUNATE

WE ARE ONE BELIEVE IT OR NOT

WE WILL SLEEP WHEN OUR HEART STOPS

SO HERE AGAIN I TELL YOU

SO JUST GO AWAY AND DON'T COME BACK

THIS IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY

THIS WILL BE MY FINAL RESTING PLACE

AS I SUFFER FROM MYSELF

Even Ghosts Have A Home /  by Andrew Diaz

Even Ghost Have A Home This is how people die This is how they fade away I need a home I need a bed Tired of couches Tired of baby steps When I wake I fear death When I breathe there's nothing left Not holding on to what was Not much of anything Just lost Just gone My daughter keeps telling me "daddy I don't want you to die" My daughter, my light What do you see? What do you believe? Daddy is hurting Daddy is tired No more fight No more cry Better find a home soon Better find something Tired of searching for that place Tired of the constant roam Even ghost Even they..... Have a home

Why won’t you just go away? /  by Andrew Diaz

Why won't you just go away?

Why won't you just go away?

Why do you get in my head

Why are you always in the way?

Are you suffering too?

Is that why you are here?

To remind me that I can

Continue

Repeat

I have to fight this off

Each time

Victory

Defeat

Repeat each day with a smile

Some conversation with my coworkers

So they don't question

This sadness

Make fun

Let's joke

As I turn

And walk away

I'm in pain

I cry

I hurt

Eight hours of confusion

This pain

Fight

Delusion

Every day

Heart ache

Bipolar

Depression

A never ending life lesson

For everything anyone has ever done

To support me

To show me

To go on

Plz know I appreciate

All the support

That I won't ever give up

To show respect

And to say thanks

But sometimes

I just want

To

Fade

Away

So to this sadness in my head

To all this pain

To all this dread

I tell this to you

And I ask this question

BIPOLAR disorder

Let me reorder

And set my life

My way

My question

Why?

Why won't you just go away?

This is gonna hurt /  by Andrew Diaz

This is gonna hurt

This is gonna hurt

These weren't your words

But your actions

Your hand is creeping

About to do damage

I'm a child for Christ sake

What's wrong with you?

Your my dad

I'm so small

You can't tell that I'm mad

So do what you gonna do

Just gotta repress and re-imagine

That this

Just

Isn't

Happening

I'll be stronger some day

Laughing my ass off

While you lay so many years

Below

You can't inflict no more pain

To my head

Or my heart

I got this art

Driving me far

Six feet below is where you always belonged Hopefully your so much deeper

Burning in hell for what you did to me

I WAS A CHILD!

HOW DARE YOU!

I try to forget what you made me do

Trying to forget every piece of you

As I lay here alone

Writing this pain

Spilling it on my phone

I say goodnight to myself

Memories of you long gone

But this pain I felt

Makes you not feel I still ...... remember

You didn't say these words

But that look in your eyes

This is gonna hurt

This is a moment /  by Andrew Diaz

I don't know where I am right now

I am perhaps off in the distant

I am off in the clouds

I must be careful here

I must tread lightly

This is a moment

This is where….

I could lose it all

Still here /  by Andrew Diaz

I just wanted to share with anyone who reads this that I am still here. I have been focusing on getting my life together and so artwork has not been a priority. My new six piece collection is still waiting for me to finalize it but……it will be well worth the wait. I hope all is well with everyone:) if anyone needs to talk I am here for you.

Back up /  by Andrew Diaz

I may fall down quite a bit

It doesn’t matter if I sit or I'm standing

The ground I found is always demanding

That I plant my feet once again and let those roots grow a

It's never to late to heal da soul

De la was supposed to come first

I'm feeling that art, my work

It quenches my thirst

Through the darkness the light will purge all that is holding me back

My victory

My goal

My future

The world

I'm breathing fine once again

So I exercise and write rhymes each with heart line by line

No drugs just life

Breath by breath

I live once

Again

Almost there… /  by Andrew Diaz

I hope everyone is safe and well. I wanted to give an update on my new collection. It is the biggest one I have done in a while. My first two collections were done at the same time and were eight in total but this single collection..is six. It will be (hopefully) the most powerful and honest work I have ever done. Time to rest. Big day tomorrow:)