And So I Burned It All

And So I Burned It All

www.artbyandrewdiaz.com

There I sat at the edge

My future was right in sight

Can't take that step for some reason

Some things I can't let go

Won't let go

My past

It can grab hold

It reminds

My mind always on constant rewind

Memories on replay

It's all gone yet I miss them all

Can't sleep

Past wounds still bleed

Soul deep

Trying to fit into this life

At times I want to die

I cut people off

I need that silence

Can't hurt me behind these walls

Window blinds closed

Yet I see them all

It's dark and it's my comfort

The only way I like be

I can't think

Don't want to feel most days

Gotta pull through this

Too much past

Too many bad memories

Must stand not crawl

Only way to succeed

And so I burned it all

#rhyme

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Update

Been hard at work on my new project. I hope everyone is well.

Metal Print Now Available

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A special thank you to Canada for checking out my web! Much love!

Sacramento

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You never know

You never know what someone is going through

You can't tell that the battle is far from over.

The darkness

The pain

How much your mind is nearly on the brink

Destruction

Repeat

No limits

Slowly insane

I just wanna get away to that place in the desert

No one around

Just me and my thoughts

My past still has its hold

Maybe if I repeat it enough

If I play it back one more time

I can fix what I broke

I can find my purpose

Cuz right now, I feel so alone

Working every day to come home to no family

No children

No wife

Just an empty life

This pain and solitude provides too much reflection

Just want to sleep and remember

Remember

Remember

Still

Still trying to find my bit of happiness and the point to this all.

What made me …

What made me in the first place?

What drove me to rip myself apart?

Why do I feel less like what I used to know?

Something changed. Something dark.

Bones broken

Heart done

My imagination either has left me or something inside is dying

I don't know

No one does

They say stay in the fight

They say I have talent

They say I inspire others

I'm happy about these things

Hopefully some day I can have my own space to create

Now I have some infliction to dispell upon myself

Must find that spark

Must get that light

Must not die

This is too important

When it is what it is

I completely understand why things are the way they are

That happiness truly had happened once before and that it can happen again

I've started a new life

Not exactly what I thought

But I can get there

Through hard work

Patience

Making dreams different

From thought

Ill either find you again

Or someone new

Someone I knew

It's not over

(It does hurt though)

Something Subtle

Just waiting for that moment

That spark

That light

I've been doodling for ages it seems

Yet no artwork worth it's weight

Therapy is fine and all

Yet I'm missing something inside

That drive

That call

I work too much and it does takes a toll

All to live a life that's pretty empty

What is it I'm looking for?

Just draw like you used too

Get it out

There's something you need to say

There's something you feel

Keep it simple

Make it real

What is this feeling?

Going on three weeks now. This crawling, numbness feeling in my brain. What is it? (Forgot to publish yesterday)

Don't worry drew..

Don't worry drew….

You can get there again. Just search your heart and create what you feel.

I wander

It's been so long since I've made any artwork of real worth. I must take stock of where I am and find something to create. The daily artwork I've been doing on my phone has definitely helped me

This headache….

For two weeks now

I've Had this headache

A numbing feeling in my brain

I hope it's nothing

It's hard to concentrate

Please go Away

Constant numbing

Numb

Numb

Numb

Sometimes You Hit A Wall

Sometimes you Hit A wall

It can hit hard

Ruthless

Fierce

It can come out of nowhere

Take ya down

Leave you with no breath

Thats when you take the time

Sit back and reflect

Take a different direction

A new approach

What happens is meant to happen

I'm in control

Started out as a vending machine

So I was doing my daily artwork. I started out with a vending machine. Mmmmmm

At Some Point

At Some Point I'd like to feel like I've made something of myself. I'd like to feel less alone.

Orbital

A daily drawing addition. This was a mashup of three different previous art pieces of mine. All to keep my skills and heart in this art thing.

If i were to die today

If I were to die today It would be such a wasted life.

I have moved on from this pain and this. Always grasping at something better. I know what I want and …..it's just over. The life I had while not perfect…..it is what I miss the most.