Not much time left

Yesterday I did some more meditation and it was great. My breathing is not where it should be but I just started doing it so…in time. Something I have been feeling lately is that I am dying. I do not want to die for I feel like I have a lot more I want to do like so much more artwork and most of all to see my beautiful children grow. However I don’t know if it is because life has been getting increasingly more difficult or that something is wrong inside, but I know my body and spirit and I can honestly tell you…I am dying. I am strong but I feel weaker by the day. I continue to have conflict with my ex-wife and It’s not entirely her as it takes two to tango. I love her so much in the sense that for the sake of our children I will continue to try and find that balance so our kids can see two parents who respect each other and do not fight. It will always be her way or no way…..but maybe…just maybe ……I can find a way to get through to her and understand her better. As for me, I feel like this is the last chance to get things right and to find that balance for I do not have much time left. My body and soul are so very tired of fighting and I do not want people to say when I am gone “He never stopped fighting” but I would rather want them to say “He found his happiness and was able to enjoy life”.

I have to get back to my new collection of artwork.. Take care everyone….. :)