Why am i so scared of the day?

Why am I so scared of the day?

It just arrived

Hovering and lurching

Am I it's prey

I can feel something is wrong

Like before I went to bed and right when I woke

Is it my mind

Has it finally broke?

I am so scared of what feels so wrong

All this stress and hurt

I want to cry and not rest in the dirt

I must tell those who I love how grateful I am

For all that they did

All the encouragement

For if there is a surprise

And this is my end

Know that all of you

Everyone in my life

I want to say …

thank you

And

I love you

You all made it a good life

And for that

Remember me

Every laugh

Every drawing

Every year

I just hope this isn't the end

But why

Why am I so scared?